5.22.2004

I honestly thought i had it all figured out, but now.... aaarggg!!! i know i've said it a LOT of times but maybe its now time to get serious... my friends say i'm the mature one in the group but in all honesty, they may see me act like one but i certainly don't think like one. Cause if i did, i would not have feelings of regrets right now. I won't go back to thinking, "What could have been?", cause i know it would be just a waste of time, but I can't help myself. I know what I'm capable of, its just that for some reasons, i'm finding ways to let myself down. I know sometimes it might be too late, but I'm just oblivious with that fact.

Maybe the wrong thing about being me being too happy or by being too optimistic is that i always think to myself that everything will be okay and that instead of letting my failures teach me, I just try to forget what happened and just move on...

Can't wait to go to Tagaytay tomorrow, to do some thinking :( Sometimes i wonder if my being impulsive is admirable for it takes guts but then there are times when i realize, in the end that I'm just being plain stupid for doing things impetuously.

Haayyy..just don't like it when it rains, makes me all comtemplative and sentimental.

bic walked away at 4:01 PM