7.31.2004

Senti

I miss my parents :( Hope they come back soon.

bic walked away at 5:25 PM

3 Turns

Had a great time last night. :) Gian treated us to a Buffet last night together with his girlfriend, gica :) It was because Gian promised that he would treat us to a HOTEL buffet, if we passed. That's how pessimistic he was. Fortunately we passed. hehe. Sabi nga ni Gian, ang tigas ng ulo ko for thinking we still have a chance. hehe. So Gian was forced to treat us. hehe. Though we knew that he must keep his promise, it would seem unfair to pursue the hotel buffet so we just opted the one in Intramuros.

At first i thought it would not push through cause it was raining, but we still opted to go for Intramuros. Good thing, there was one which was still open. And it was worth it. Gian even told me that it was time to become a "monster". Over tlaga nun! I had about 3 turns till I could no longer take the thought of eating anymore. Or maybe because the manager looked at me in a weird way cause he must be wondering how I could eat like that. hehe. :) If this does not make me gain weight, I don't know what anymore. :)

The dinner turned out okay and fun. The conversations, the food, although it did not have any desserts except for the fruit salad and of course because of the company. Gian even brought us all home. :) It was nice meeting Gian's girlfriend. I thought I would feel akward but she was really nice and kumakampi sya sa amin against gian. ehehe. Sayang lang cause my camera run ot of battery so we only just had one picture. :(



It was nice eating as a group. Maybe because we do not have a super heavy burden anymore. Although, I am still nervous cause we still have lots of Revisions. We just have to work much harder this time. Much harder! Gian's expression was a classic when right after dropping me of to my house, before he left, I said goodbye AND reminded him to do his part of our revisions. heheeh. Cguro sa isip ni gian, "ayan na naman ako". heheeh So i'm here at our thesis room. Hope I could finish all my parts in our revisions :)

bic walked away at 10:52 AM

7.30.2004

Right now, i can't still believe we got a conditional pass. :) God really works in mysterious ways. And i would forever be grateful and thankful for this chance.

i know I'm always the one who looks at the bright side but when our defense was coming closer and closer, I must have rode a rollercoaster of emotions. I must have felt like crying everytime. hehehe. That's me! I do laugh easily but I do get emotional too. The week before our defense, I sometimes just stare in space and wished that everyhting would be done already. I remember Ruz always reminding me to be always be optimistic and not to get nervous because if I was the one in the group who would try to give up, we would never really go far since in a way, they do rely on me to always keep the group together and to believe that we could do it despite the circumstances.

I remember the night before our defense. I just got home from hearing Mass and Gian was in our house when he told me that he thinks we would not have no chance at all since he found out that we had some missing important functions. I knew Gian was a pessimist but I knew what he said was right. and what did I do? I called farids and we both cried. haahahha!!! :D But then we realized that "kayang iwasan", so we laughed. I knew from the look in Gian's face that he thought I was crazy. heheh. But after Gian left, I knew that I needed to stay focus and not to get emotional. So I listened to some Gospel songs and it helped. In some weird way, I felt that we could pull it off, but only for that night, cause the next morning...

We were suppose to be at school by 8 because we still had no tech manual, no system testing, no props, no plans and no practice. Then comes the bad news that one of our functions was not working properly and that my computer would not work. And the ulitmate part of that day was when I was in copytrade and a black cat passed by me. I knew it was bad luck, and so when I returned to the thesis room, I told Ruz and Farids what happened. I said I was sorry that a black cat passed by me and the next thing I knew, we all had tears in our eyes. hahahahahha!!! "Wala malas na tlaga natin". heheeh But despite these unfortunate incidents, our group always manages to laugh even without no reason. eheh Maybe it took the stress or the thought that today "sesentensyahan" na kmi. :D

Aside from having a conditional pass, one of the things I'm grateful are for my groupmates, our friends, and our thesis adviser. Even before defense, we even had some arguments with each other but when it was time to pull it off, they did it. :) I'm proud of Ruz and Farids for "acting" with me. I know they're not really the type to do such a thing but they did it convincigly. For Gian, for doing all the right things when we needed him to be :) For Rage, Niks, Joms, Tuf for helping us. We were just in a disarray cause 30 minutes before the time, we still had no practice and had done no system testing, but they took the initiative to help us fix our stuff so we could do our own thing. :) And those help were super appreciated. Just like the good lucks, God Bless' and texts that we recieved from unexpected people. :) And for Ms. Mavic, who still took the time to REALLY help us and for making us realize that we can still do it :D Cause I must admit, that week was just full of problems, but she managed to make us believe in ourselves.

During the defense, eventhough at the start, the lead panel told us that he had a lot of questions, for some reasons, during our "play" we were able to "act" like the panelists was not there. We acted even if the system had errors. hehe. Kapal na lng ng face. hehe. Maybe somehow that did it. Here comes the emotional part. See, i told you how emotional I have been. heheh. When they told us that we got conditonal pass, aside from saying thanks to the Lord, the first thing that came to my mind was "iiwan na ako ng grpmates ko" hehehe.

How could I forget the things that we had done. Paglalakad namin ni ruz sa kalye ng mag-hahatinggabi na, asking the guard to let us in when it was almost midnight, lots of overnights, eating junkfood, kabastusan ni gian, Ms. Mavic getting mad at us :( , passing our docu at exactly 11:30, ARGUMENTS, riding the jeep so we could pass on time, printer being broken when we really need it, Gian's list of reasons, my laptop being broken when our whole system was there, descenting thesis approval, so I'll say it again. God really works in mysterious ways.

And when my dad called form States, and I told him the God news, he was so proud that he also told me that he was praying for it everyday even if my mom and dad were there. Eh di iyak na naman ako. ahahahhahah!!

But for now, we must work cause we have A LOT of revisions. Lord gave us a chance so we should not waste it. :) Its not over till its over.

bic walked away at 11:38 AM

7.20.2004

SCOOP
 
Arrrggg! I hate it! I hate it!
 
Don't you just hate the feeling of not knowing something when in fact, you can have it in the first place. This is what I get from being a chismosa. I mean, for being a curious person. there's a difference you see :)  hehe
 
Just got home from school, and I know it's pretty late but its all because of Rage. I think I look pretty stupid standing by the steps of the "fly over", cause I just kept on asking Rage about that "scoop". Why can't Rage just tell me the "scoop". I hate that word! I mean, you can't blame me, because all day long, Joms and Rage found ways to keep reminding me that i could have known the "scoop" if only I went last Saturday.  I mean was it my fault!? I promise, I was all dressed up ready to go when suddenly it rained. and I knew from there that it would be impractical if I went.  Its just that what got me curious was that Joms said something about if i had known the "scoop", I would utter "Oh my Gosh!". Why!? Buffet? Libre? Artista? What?! Its just that what they did was like showing a kid some candies, but then you won't give it anyway. hmp!
 
Since Rage won't tell me, he told me to text Joms since he'll be the one to tell me instead and so I did. What do i get? "Very much kris" JOOOOMMMMSSS!! Arrgg! Fine! I GIVE UP!! And so even if napipilitan lng me, I had to go home cause Rage was so stubborn in not telling me. From now on, this will be the final day that I will mention the word "scoop". 
 
Fine, I would never know it at all. Just as long as the "scoop", there's the word again, is not about either Love since that's the supposedly clue that Rage gave me or about my dreaded guess, or else I'll die...

bic walked away at 12:01 AM

7.19.2004

Any given Sunday
 
Yesterday seemed to be one of the most perfect days i ever had :) I thought that day would turn out to be just one of those weary and boring days I usually have whenever I slept late the night before.  But fortunately, last Sunday was different. The day started when my ate woke me up at around 10 in the morning. At first I was kinda grouchy cause I wanted to sleep more since I practically slept at 5 in the morning but my ate was so insistent that we go to the mall. And since I did'nt want to dissapoint my sister, I dragged myself out of bed, said a short prayer and turned on the radio just to wake myself up. I knew it was going to be a good day cause I heard the phone ring and it finally was my dad calling us. That brightened my day cause I knew they finally arrived safely. Haaayy, miss my parents so much. :)
 
Its been sometime since my sisters and I went to the mall just by ourselves.I know its no big deal that were going to be spending some time together since we live in just one house anyways but I'm kinda sentimental with these kinds of things cause in some ways, I miss them.  Usually my ate is busy with her work, me with thesis and Kar with her Tapat activities.  *sniff sniff* hehee. Anyways, when we arrived in Glorietta, my ate and I decided to watch Spiderman cause we think were like the only people who haven't watched the movie, but since Kar has gone to watch it already, she just decided to pamper herself with some footspa and stuff. Haaaayy.. anyway, as my ate was paying for the tickets since it was her treat,  she did'nt know she paid for the sure seats so it was expensive as compared to the others. She coul'dnt help but to say to me "Sana damdamin mo bawat scene ng movie" hahahah!! Its because my Ate is soooooooo kuripot. Although when she's generous, she really is, like for that day.
 
My sister and I both agreed that Spidey2 was much better than the first one.  The movie was fast paced and I liked it.  I could'nt tell the scenes which were "computerized". I guess the only part that I did'nt like was the finale. The supposedly romantic scene between MJ and Peter. Although it was okay, I did'nt like the line uttered by Peter which was " Thankyou Mary Jane Watson" :P How come they always have to complete the name!?! But I really liked how Tobey portrayed his role. You could really feel his sadness and weariness, and his love for MJ. There's jsut this thing about Shy Guys that you really want them to prevail and to win the girl.
 
But the exciting part was when my sister announced that she's gonna take us shopping. WOOOOWWW!!! Shopping has always been a cure for me :) Its like my light at the end of a dark tunnel. ahahah!! :) And the best part was that when we went to rustan's. I saw a Sale Sign. I was like a child in a toy store and I could'nt help but leave my sisters and immediately looked into the clothes. The best part was that after choosing the clothes, my sister super duper insisted to pay for it. yey! :) After that, I suggested that we go for neo print. My treat! ahahhahah!! :) Its all that I could afford eh. ehehehhe.
 
So when we went back since we have a mass to go to, I saw that La Salle was leading in the game. Yey! :) Although I noticed that I'm not into UAAP this season like before or maybe its because i'm pre- occupied with thesis, I really hope La Salle gets the championship back. Nakkuuu!! galingan galingan na ni Yeo ah! :P
 
Just to say how good the day was, when we arrived at the chapel, we saw that all the seats were taken and for some reasons, a couple of people stood up. So we took their seats. hahaah! :)
 
After the mass, we did'n want to order from some fast food chains so we just cooked whatever we found in the fridge. Our cook kasi is on her day off while the other one, lemonade juice lng kaya. :( In fairness, masarap niluto namin ah! :) hheehehhe
 
Basta, pagod na me. And in summary, ang saya super ng araw ko. That night, i even cleaned my room. Best finale, when I weighed myself. Umabot na rin me ng 100. At last, 100 pounds na me! I guess I should end it now cause nag bratty na si Kar, and I need to go home na. Takot na ako sa thesis! promise! Sana ndi na galit samin si Ms. Mavic. :( All in God's will...
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

bic walked away at 1:19 AM

7.16.2004

You Don't Know My Name
 
Its been weeks since I was able to wath TV all night :)  Was able to watch shows from the ETC channel and the Amazing Race. :) yey! If given an opportunity, I would super duper LOVE to do something like that. Being able to travel and just have this feeling of excitement in expecting the unexpected is something I would love to experience. Heard that the Amazing race went tot he Philippines. Hope they showed our good side. :) I haven't really picked my fave pair to win yet but based from the episode that I watched, I'm glad with the couple who got eliminated. I'm not sure with their names but it sounded like Donny and Alison . At first I thought that I'd like them since when I saw the guy, he kinda looked like a Filipino but during the course of the episode, I really wanted to kick him. He was like shouting at his girlfriend who was obviously having a  hard time. Instead of helping her out, he kept on shouting, "Shut up!". Sheesh! Whattajerk to the max! :P Whatever happened to chivalry. If I had a boyfriend like that, I won't have any second doubts of breaking off with him. Sure, that Donny guy was kinda cute, but with an attitude like that particularly with his girlfriend, NO THANKS! tsk! tsk!
 
Anyway, I don't know what's with the weather cause suddenly its been raining hard. But the small foldable umbrella that my mom gave me sure comes handy now. I just hope it won't rain tommorrow cause my ate and I are planning to go to the movies :) Bonding kami ng ate ko. Can't wait, cause after that its thesis again :P
 
My parents just left today and its kinda weird knowing I won't be able to see them tommorrow. Hope they'll have  safe flight. They better call us first thing when they arrive there, so at least i'll have peace of mind. My goal right now is to gain weight so that when they come back, my dad would be really happy. Aside from my usual eating of my 2 cups of rice for every meal, I've decided to add midnight snacks to my "plan". Hope it works. :) hehehe.

bic walked away at 11:55 PM

7.15.2004

HOW?!
 
Someone said to me something today that caught me by surprise, I'm just super duper hoping that the cat's not out of the bag..

bic walked away at 11:07 PM

So I guess it really is true.. Shaq's moving to the Heat! Grrr! :P Asar! :P Hmp! :P

Even if they fought a lot, I really liked the tandem of Kobe and Shaq, but I guess because of the trade, it really won't happen again. Sayang talaga. If only they won the championship. It would have been a classic. Malone and Payton winning at last a championship, Jackson as the "winningest" coach, Bryant a winner despite the trial and a rift with Shaq. Haaaaaaaayyy!! I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles. Let's see what happens in the next NBA season. But whatever happens, I know I'm still going to be a Laker fan. :D Sana mapanindigan ko. hahahah!

The past few days after we passed the thesis requirements, for some reason, I felt somewhat more happy. I know I'm usually cheerful, but these days, it seems like there's always more reasons to smile. I just hope this carries over till defense. ;)

But right now, I need to catch up on my other subjects. Although i know its totally my fault for having this kind of situation, one thing I 've realized is how thankful I am of my friends. One thing I've realized is that ever since I have always been blessed with good sets of friends. My grade school friends are my friends till now, my highschool barkada, i love them super and we still try to meet up once a month and they are the ones I trust the most, and my college friends, they are the best. I may "suffer" when I'm with them, but when it matters the most, I know they'll always be there for me. Actually they are one of the reasons why even if going to school sucks, with them, there's something to look forward to. :) I mean, every chance they get, they always help me each time. unconditionally. Whether in a big way such as allotting their time to teach me or in a small way like bringing my favorite food, I really appreciate everything that they do. One of the reasons why even if most people tell me that its a suicide, one of the reasons why I'm still hanging is because of them. :)

Anyway, since my dad and I had an argument last monday, its been kinda akward. Its because whenever my dad realizes that he was the one who made the mistake, he's usually extra thoughtful and sweet. That's his way of showing he's sorry instead of saying it. He would make breakfast for me or bring me milk for the night. Take for example, like tonight, I've always been known to always having zero credits that could even last up to two months, and you guessed it, I got no balance as we speak, then out of nowhere, my dad secretly gives me credit just so my other sisters won't see it. Usually, I would have gladly accepted it, but this time, I felt it was'nt the right thing to do. i did'nt want to make my dad feel that I was taking advantage of the situation and that I wanted to convey a message that even if he does'nt do all those things, I've forgiven him already since i know that I was also wrong. So intead, I just paid him for the credits. but only 80% of the amount. hehehe. :) Sayang eh..

My parents are both leaving for the states this friday, and i know, as usual, that I'm going to miss them terribly. I'll miss my dad telling me to stop singing or my mom shouting at me to hurry up so i could eat breakfast. hehe. Although I won't mind the fact that i could go out. hehehe! Hmmmm... I guess I should think about my pasalubong list? hahha! :)

Haaaay! I miss my laptop! so the problem was the adaptor. and it costs P2,100. Nahihiya na me sa parents ko. :(

I guess I better start debugging our program, but before that, I'm just gonna try to shoot some basketball in my mini basketball court. courtesy of rage. hehe. :)

bic walked away at 10:04 PM

7.13.2004

Keep my Mouth Shut
 
HUHUHUHUHU!!! :'( oo na! oo na! Im like the only person who has not seen Spiderman. :(

I have accidentally said something today that could cause a great deal of embarassment for me..wag naman sana..

bic walked away at 10:13 PM

For once, I've got nothing to do. :) I know its just going to last for today only but still.. :)

11:30. That's the time I won't forget for now. Cause that's the time stamped in on our proof of submission. Submission of thesis requirements happened so fast that everything felt like a blur. I honestly thought that we would'nt be able to pass on time cause by 11:25, we were still in the final process of having our docus ring binded. My groupmates and I had to split so that each one of us could have our docu ring binded in 3 different stalls. But if there is one thing that I've always believed in is that the Lord is Good. I must admit eventhough my friends have always thought of me as the optimistic one, I kinda lost hope. I could see form the xerox store that we only had 5 minutes more and we were still in Benilde. But then, good old Tufe calls me in my celfone asking me where we were cause we still had 15 minutes to pass, so we better hurry up. And just like that, I felt like we could still make it. :) I even helped the girl ring bind our docu just so, she would move quickly. And that made me smile not only cause we can still pass our docu, but because of what Tufe did. Eventhough he makes asar every single day, it reminded me that I'm blessed to have firends like him. :)

I don't know why but there's just something about me that the less sleep I get, the more energy that i have. hehehe. Just so we could finish our software and docu, we literally did not sleep, or even just to take a nap. I should be like a walking zombie yesterday, but when Joms suggested that we go to Prov for sing along, I immediately said yes, and before I knew it, even after Ruz and Farids left already, Rage, Joms, Tuf and I were still singing. I did not realize that maybe 3 hours or so have already passed.
What's funny was when we invited Tufe to come along, he was saying that he was just gonna come just to watch, but after I started to sing my staple videoke song of Crush by Jenifer Paige, before i knew it, Tufe was lining up to sing also. And even if we did not have any coins left, he and Rrage were still singing. :P

But I guess not all good things last, or maybe just for that day. I know I should go home early that day but I guess I did'nt because going back to my house, particularly my Room would just remind me of our Thesis. So I stayed late in school and played Pusoy Dos with Niks and the others. I just love playing Pusoy Dos. Playing reminded me how good I was. hahahahhaha! :) so when I got back home, my dad to put it lightly got furious with me. He reasoned out that I should'nt be going home late cause I did not have any sleep at all. I should be taking care of myself. I know i should be touched becuase of his concern, but I guess I did'nt like the way he showed it last night cause it sounded like he was scolding me. :P I guess I'm not used to "napapagalitan" cause I consider myself like a Daddy's girl. But i guess my daddy is now realizing how he became "over" in scolding me cause this morning, he was telling me how he prepared breakfast for me and that if i had enough money for school. hehehe.

Tommorrow, we'll be bringing back the computers to the thesis room... Haaaaayyy!!... no choice! :( Ayoko na mag code ulit. huhuhuh! :(

I guess I should end it here now cause I'm just using Niks computer and they're making parinig na sumusobra na raw ako... OVVEEERRR! :p Oo nga pala, Hi to Lion! :P Yan ah! heheh

bic walked away at 3:43 PM

7.05.2004

I feel like my head's in a spin. Too many things, so little time. Sh*t!

bic walked away at 11:16 PM

7.02.2004

So I'm still sick despite eating a bunch of ponkans and taking more than a thousand milligrams of Vitamin C :( The thing is, I'm pretty healthy. I rarely get sick, so when I do, I'm so not used to the feeling. Usually my mom tells me that I can recover quickly from sickness but not this time. :( Maybe its because of the stress and the puyat caused by thesis plus my other subjects. Sometimes, I just want to lie down in bed,and just stare off in space...

Bad timing talaga!! >:( Just when I need all my energy to finish our thesis, especially now that its "crunch time"...

I just hope that I'll feel much better by next week. I don't like this feeling. Sometimes I get into a zone where I just want to be quiet and just curl up in a chair cause I don't think I could take it anymore. But then my friends would ask me what's wrong, and I would give a weak smile. I guess they're not used to seeing me like that. I remember Seyds telling me that out of all of us, I'm the one that could drag the whole group down if I'm feeling low, cause I'm usually the cheerful one. I should probably consider taking a break this Saturday cause maybe that's just what i would need. But then there's still thesis. And I guess, since this is a critical time, I feel that it would be unfair for my other groupmates if I won't be able to do my share. Plus there's the matter of..

My barkada from high school are inviting me to go out to Makati tommorrow night, just eat out then either go for coffee or "inuman". I really want to go cause I really miss them. My friend, Juls, even offered to take care of me, with ride and all, so I could just come. Cause my dad would only allow me to go out if only there is transpo or I have a friend to take me home. Anyway, its been a long time since I was able to catch up with them since the last time I was able to go out with them was still probably back in April. But I don't think my parents would let me since I'm still feeling weak. They would probably say that I should just rest than go out and tire myself out.. but we'll see.. "pa-drama" effect me tommorrow. :) heehehe

But even if I felt that the past few days have been a downer, God gives little surprises that makes me happy and grateful still. Its because I got a relatively high grade on a test I did'nt expect to pass, getting some Slam Dunk episodes, Au helped me on some Photoshop problems, and then when I went Videoke singing with Joms, Rage and Niks, for the first time, I got a high score that redeemed me and proof that I can still be a "superstar". haha! :D

Next week, I'll be expecting the worst. I've got importants tests and thesis. I still don't know what to do. Sometimes, I just want to say I should'nt have done what I did but one thing about me is that I don't give up. I remember before when I was just a sophomore, and still living the "easy life" which resulted to some problems, my mom suggested that maybe I should just shift course. Although I knew that it was the most logical thing to do since during that time, I knew a lot of people who either shifted, transfered or worse, been kicked out, and I knew in my heart that geeting out of CS, would still mean a failure. And for me, I saw this course as a challenge, that I intended to win over, so i stuck by my decision and I'm proud to say that despite being "tamad", here I am still. :D ...but when stressful times like these come, I can't help but wished I did'nt take CompSci, then I just say to myself " yan! yan! ang yabang mo kasi! ".. hehhe. :D

bic walked away at 11:58 PM