7.30.2004

Right now, i can't still believe we got a conditional pass. :) God really works in mysterious ways. And i would forever be grateful and thankful for this chance.

i know I'm always the one who looks at the bright side but when our defense was coming closer and closer, I must have rode a rollercoaster of emotions. I must have felt like crying everytime. hehehe. That's me! I do laugh easily but I do get emotional too. The week before our defense, I sometimes just stare in space and wished that everyhting would be done already. I remember Ruz always reminding me to be always be optimistic and not to get nervous because if I was the one in the group who would try to give up, we would never really go far since in a way, they do rely on me to always keep the group together and to believe that we could do it despite the circumstances.

I remember the night before our defense. I just got home from hearing Mass and Gian was in our house when he told me that he thinks we would not have no chance at all since he found out that we had some missing important functions. I knew Gian was a pessimist but I knew what he said was right. and what did I do? I called farids and we both cried. haahahha!!! :D But then we realized that "kayang iwasan", so we laughed. I knew from the look in Gian's face that he thought I was crazy. heheh. But after Gian left, I knew that I needed to stay focus and not to get emotional. So I listened to some Gospel songs and it helped. In some weird way, I felt that we could pull it off, but only for that night, cause the next morning...

We were suppose to be at school by 8 because we still had no tech manual, no system testing, no props, no plans and no practice. Then comes the bad news that one of our functions was not working properly and that my computer would not work. And the ulitmate part of that day was when I was in copytrade and a black cat passed by me. I knew it was bad luck, and so when I returned to the thesis room, I told Ruz and Farids what happened. I said I was sorry that a black cat passed by me and the next thing I knew, we all had tears in our eyes. hahahahahha!!! "Wala malas na tlaga natin". heheeh But despite these unfortunate incidents, our group always manages to laugh even without no reason. eheh Maybe it took the stress or the thought that today "sesentensyahan" na kmi. :D

Aside from having a conditional pass, one of the things I'm grateful are for my groupmates, our friends, and our thesis adviser. Even before defense, we even had some arguments with each other but when it was time to pull it off, they did it. :) I'm proud of Ruz and Farids for "acting" with me. I know they're not really the type to do such a thing but they did it convincigly. For Gian, for doing all the right things when we needed him to be :) For Rage, Niks, Joms, Tuf for helping us. We were just in a disarray cause 30 minutes before the time, we still had no practice and had done no system testing, but they took the initiative to help us fix our stuff so we could do our own thing. :) And those help were super appreciated. Just like the good lucks, God Bless' and texts that we recieved from unexpected people. :) And for Ms. Mavic, who still took the time to REALLY help us and for making us realize that we can still do it :D Cause I must admit, that week was just full of problems, but she managed to make us believe in ourselves.

During the defense, eventhough at the start, the lead panel told us that he had a lot of questions, for some reasons, during our "play" we were able to "act" like the panelists was not there. We acted even if the system had errors. hehe. Kapal na lng ng face. hehe. Maybe somehow that did it. Here comes the emotional part. See, i told you how emotional I have been. heheh. When they told us that we got conditonal pass, aside from saying thanks to the Lord, the first thing that came to my mind was "iiwan na ako ng grpmates ko" hehehe.

How could I forget the things that we had done. Paglalakad namin ni ruz sa kalye ng mag-hahatinggabi na, asking the guard to let us in when it was almost midnight, lots of overnights, eating junkfood, kabastusan ni gian, Ms. Mavic getting mad at us :( , passing our docu at exactly 11:30, ARGUMENTS, riding the jeep so we could pass on time, printer being broken when we really need it, Gian's list of reasons, my laptop being broken when our whole system was there, descenting thesis approval, so I'll say it again. God really works in mysterious ways.

And when my dad called form States, and I told him the God news, he was so proud that he also told me that he was praying for it everyday even if my mom and dad were there. Eh di iyak na naman ako. ahahahhahah!!

But for now, we must work cause we have A LOT of revisions. Lord gave us a chance so we should not waste it. :) Its not over till its over.

bic walked away at 11:38 AM