10.12.2004

Why are some people afraid to take "that" leap ?

I know there are instances where you've reached the end. and there's the choice that has to be made. There could never be an in between. I admire those who just jumped and did not even hesitated. Was it stupidity? or simply they were just brave enough to face the consequences. But usually, you come to a halt. You stop and you rationalize. You don't know wether to take that leap or not. You come to a conclusion and you simply walk away. In the end, the mind won over the heart. Right? But was it really the case?

Why do we turn our backs? Maybe its because we don't know much about what's on the other side. Isn't it true that we are afraid of the unknown? The things that we know of about it are usually from what we've watched from the movies or from the books that we've read that stirred our imaginations. But what we know of it, more importantly comes from those who have taken that risk and greatly pronounced that it was all worth it. Was it really? Maybe we are just contented by just merely knowing about it. Its not because we can't really fully understand it but on the contrary, we know so much about it that it REALLY IS scary..

Because in taking that big leap, yes, you might see that ray of sunshine at the other end but what are the chances of successfully reaching it? It might seem easy because all you have to do is jump and everything will be okay. Right? But truth is, in taking that huge leap of faith, chances are you might fall short. Some got injured, got bruised and worse even died. But even if you were able to live through that fall, could you ever recover? Could those wounds ever heal?

Like some, she turned her back too. Was it because her mind won over her heart? Truth is, it was the other way around. Her heart won over her mind. Her heart was too precious and innocent that she did'nt want it to get hurt. Through those instances, some people were willing to hold her hand as she was about to take that leap, but instead of feeling secured, she still felt alone. Maybe it was her fault cause she did'nt trust them enough. But nevertheless she was happy with her decision. But she would always be grateful because they were willing to go with her but she can't lie when it just did'nt felt right..

So she turned her back but still with a smile on her face as she continues to walk the road again. She still admires those who took the chance cause she knows that the greater the risk is, the greater the reward is also. But eventhough, she is in no hurry. She is still enjoying this journey cause she knows deep inside, she's not quite sure if she is ready to face "that" dead end again. But Life is so unpredictable and so is she. Maybe she's just a coward. But who knows, she might just meet someone along the way. Maybe even now or later. And that someone will hold her hand, and she would hold it tightly in return, so she could take that huge leap of faith once and for all..

And sometimes, its better to write these things as if you were talking about another person..

bic walked away at 3:56 PM