11.29.2004

bic walked away at 7:06 PM

11.28.2004

ang mean ni me-an! beh! :P

I'm just so happy :D Last night I was able to meet up with my Highschool barkada at Burgoos in Rockwell! Haaayy!! Finally, I got to go to our "once-a-month get togethers". I'm just so happy to be able to see most of them again cause the last Saturday night out that I've been with them was last August pa! And during that time, most of us were still students. But now, those who were able to go are now working except for me. haaaay! Since my birthday just passed a few days ago, they kept on telling me that "Libre! Libre!". I wish! hehe :P As usual, asar talo nanaman ako! From grade school to college, I mean what else is new right?! :P But I don't believe when Tufe would say that I'm an asar magnet?! :P Maybe I'm just this saint who would rather sacrifice just for the happiness of others. hahaahha! :P


just waiting for the others..

The food was ok there. American Style kaya the food there was good for two, but as most of my friends know, I ordered only for myself! hehe :) Maita could'nt believe that I was able to finish my meal fast and still had an apetite to eat for pasta also. hehe. That's why I could'nt imagine how some people could diet. They must be really brave! Anyway, I really wished that I could have stayed longer but I could'nt. The reason being is that I'm semi-grounded that's why I had to be home by around 12. So Juls would sarcastically refer to me as Cinderella. harhar! Still the important thing is that I'm just so glad to be able to see and talk to them. The waiters at Burgoo's even sang me a Happy Birthday, complete with a candle on top of an Ice cream. Its just so unfortunate that my digicam ran out of power! grr! It was just unfortunate that out of 13, only 6 of us came although technically, it was 8 but, they were boyfriends of my friends. hehe.


syempre smile na smile me during videoke

I'm just grateful for my friends. Maski inaasar, I'm like the "baby" in the group that they really make sure that I have a transpo going there, as well as in going back :D Juls and xtin really made sure that I was able to go home on time and I did! :D They even stayed for awhile so we could have the time for.... videoke!!! ahahha!! :D I really wish that I could have the time to see them more often but the thing is, I'm happy that nothing has changed. And I do believe that even if we grow older, we are all still going to be friends. Its true that true friends are hard to find and I'm blessed to have them :D Its been more than 8 years and still counting.. :D

bic walked away at 2:36 AM

11.23.2004

my birthday cake ;)

Just when I though the celebration was over, I was super surprised but more than that, deeply touched when I was awakened by my celfone ringing to find out that one of my dearest friends since Highschool came to my house to surprise me :)I did not expect it all since I knew she had work and that i have'nt seen her for so long. But to my surprise, I got a call from her that she was already in our village but the guard won't let her in. hahaha! :D So much for the surprise! hehe. Literally, I was in my pambahay since I just woke up eventhough it was already 11. It was really a good morning in the truest sense, seeing Julie and just talking endlessly over lunch:) Ever since, we have always been like that, Juls and our barkada, since first year highschool. I did'nt even care if I haven't taken a bath and haven't even combed my hair as seen in the picture. haha! :D But what was touching for me was that I knew Julie came from work, and had no sleep!! But she still commuted, and then still had the time to buy me a cake. And I know that after her visit to me, she still had to go all the way to QC and then back to Las Pinas.I am one lucky person to have a friend like her!! Juls, luv ya!


The name, Bikoy, started with her ;)

I've said this over and over but I'm just grateful for my highschool barkada, but even more to Julie :) Even if we don't get to see one another all the time, every chance we get, its as if there was no absence :) And although our tradition is always to go out one Saturday night every month, but unfortunately, out of the 13, I'm one of the few who could'nt always come, they always make it a point to keep me "updated". They have never failed to make their presence felt whenever I needed them. And I love them for they have always been like that ever since. Therefore, its definitely a must to go to Rockwell this Saturday night.

I will always be grateful for the day that I was starting highschool and just a newcomer in St.Scho, but for that one blessed day, I was able to meet 12 great persons that have been my friends ever since and still counting. :) Love you guys! 8th_stone_table :)

Just a side note: Co, super thanks. :)I am so loving the lipbalm. hehe. But really, I like the rose even more. hahha! :D

bic walked away at 11:01 PM

11.22.2004

Sweet Sixteen


dinner with the bday girl ;)

Can i just say that I'm so happy and thankful today :) Medyo drama muna me ah.. hehe. I must admit that my Birthday has always been one of my favorite occassions. Ever since, I have been blessed with my family and friends, who really shower me with extra love, thoughtfulness and attention every birthday. I mean, ever since first year college, I've always been "surprised" by my h.s. barkada, while my college friends always made me feel special but then since I'm one of the few who's left in school, and I rarely get to see them anymore, it kind of made me feel sad in a way cause I know I won't be seeing them anymore BUT then, this year for me was even more special :) Its because the usual "Happy Birthday" greetings had more meaning since it made me realize that even with the distance, busy sched and the absence, my friends still took the time to greet and to remember me. Some even surprising me, most especially Tufe and Niks. I am so listening to the CD over and over ;) I guess, what i'm trying to say here is that I'm super duper thankful to all of you. :) When I went to church, I immediately told him how I was blessed with good friends and a loving family. Niks emailed me a birthday greeting and she said that many people care for me and its because I show I care for them, but really, I do it because they're every worth the care :) and today just showed why they all mean so much to me :) Special thanks to my H.S Barkada, my Litera group, Tufe and Niks, Au, s19, and to the beauty queens. hehe. :D

bic walked away at 11:20 AM

11.19.2004

can you feel the love?

Just got back from the Midnight Madness in Glorietta... waaaaaahh!!! :D I love Midnight Madness!! I think I've never skipped going to such sale!! :D I've been saving my money for this because I want to buy really nice gifts for my family. And nice gifts means expensive gifts esp. for my mom and ate, cause I know that they'll only like gifts from St. Michael and Rustan's. hehe. But its okay cause I know they're worth every peso, and I super duper enjoy finding stuff that I know they'll really really like. Like for my dad, I know he's not really picky about the things we give, in fact, whenever we ask him what he wants, his standard answer would always be "pakabait lng kayo anak." harhar! :P I don't know but choosing gifts for guys has always been kinda hard, maybe because I don't have any brothers to begin with. But tonight while almost entering every store, I found this item which automatically made me think of my dad. Although it was over my budget for my dad's gift, it was still a great feeling :D

But the thing is, although tonight was purposely for buying gifts for my family, since I already bought gifts for my friends ( I buy in advance cause I really get excited about xmas gift giving), as I entered EVERY store, I couldn't help but see things which I really liked as well. Waaaa!!! I was really tempted, but I kept on thinking, I won't have money left for my mom or ate, so in the end... I still succumbed to temptation!!! Noooo!! But I could'nt help it! Shopping is one of my weaknesses. At first I bought myself a shirt since it was on sale, I though that its okay since it would just be a gift for myself. hehe :) but when I was passing buy Tower Records, I saw some Disney movies on sale.. ayoooookooo!! its because I looooooooove Disney Classics. It was like someone took over me and right there, I bought 4 movies. Finding Nemo, Pinocchio, Sleeping Beauty (hhaaaayy!) and Lion King (sniff! sniff!). It would really look nice together with my Little Mermaid, a gift courtesy of Rage, Jho, and Niks. :) Too bad there was no Beauty and the Beast, Mulan, Pocahontas or Aladdin but maybe it was for the best since I would have literally no money left!!

Sayang lang cause I was not able to see Seyds cause when we were texting each other, she was also in Makati. hehe. But maybe it was for the best that we had to leave at 10 cause I still need to go to school tommorrow by 8 or else, I would probably have no money left. Good thing my birthday is justa round the corner, cause I know my parents would be giving me money. hahah!! kapal!! But still, I'm so happy tonight super! :D Most of the names in my shopping list are already crossed out already, just a few more left. I can't wait for Christmas!!!

bic walked away at 10:35 PM

11.16.2004

Why is it the case that as we grow older, the things that usually matter so much to us lose its meaning in a slow agonizing death? Is it because we are finally faced with what reality is all about? Are we faced with the truth that it's a matter of using our head than our heart, or maybe it's losing sight of their true significance?

Usually Christmas has always been a time to celebrate being with our family and to rejoice the Lord's birth, but now it has become a reason to whine about the many expenses and the traffic it brings. When it comes to Birthdays, people usually look forward to it because somehow it makes them feel special and thankful for another year given to them, but now it has become a reason to complain about being a year older. And sometimes, being courteous, like even the simple thing of letting an older person get ahead of us seemed unthought-of because today seemed more of "I" and less of "we". Before, the concept of Love is finding someone you truly care about, but now, it has become finding anyone just because they're the "only one" not because they are "the one". Did I make any sense?

Maybe I'm feeling this way because I know that the day of the year when I feel most special is getting near and even if I am suppose to feel elated like always, sometimes the feeling of sadness creeps in. Maybe its because of the slow realization that the thing I'm most afraid of is sometimes catching up on me, and that is losing sight of what these things should really mean. Maybe I just miss my friends and I know even more cause I know they won't be with me on that day BUT just having talks during dinnertime with my family or catching up with an old friend and realizing that the friendship is still there are enough to make me realize that it never really lost its meaning. I find once again what is truly essential. Its just up to myself to realize that for it to sustain its importance, we have to look inside our hearts, and realize the true happiness that these things bring out.

Sometimes I wonder if the train of the present left without me because I seemed to be stuck in the past. Its the past where everything seemed okay but most especially, simple when I know for a fact that its not. I am afraid to hurt others but more on being hurt myself. I've often been ridiculed for my old-fashioned ways and thoughts, but I am unabashed by my sentiments, and just like in an Ally McBeal episode, "the world is no longer romantic, but some are still, and their lies a promise that it could still be.."

I just hope that hopefully as I am blessed with years to come, I leave it up to God that in this seemingly cynical world, I may still always find happiness like I always do everytime I am given another day :)

bic walked away at 10:57 PM

11.10.2004

Even though NBA started for quite a while now, it was only last Saturday that I finally got the chance to watch a game, a Lakers game. HAAAAAYYY!! :( It was sad seeing the team. I was so used to seeing, Fisher, Shaq and even Rick Fox. hehe. But kidding aside, I liked the Lakers even more because of Shaq. Even before when he was still in Orlando with Hardaway, I liked him already as a player even though his freethrows, was so poor, and arguably, until now. But now that he's out of the Lakers team, it would really be a big loss. Did'nt Shaq lead the Orlando before for a Finals appearance eventhough he was just new then? Though most people don't like Kobe because of his arrogant and sefish ways, I still took a liking of him because I saw his negative traits were just due to his intensity for the game. This which maybe taken in a positive or a negative way. And since it can be said that Kobe thinks he could lead the Lakers, which was the primary reason why Shaq moved out, panindigan ni Kobe yan! But that does'nt mean I would not be supporting him nor the Lakers. I just often think that Kobe is usually misunderstood by others :(

But if it comes down to Kobe and Shaq, It's got to be Shaq :D While I do believe that Kobe is a better player, Shaq is still my choice because you still get a sense of a "person" in him. When I say such, what I mean is although Shaq is just too big for words, I feel like he's still someone I could approach while Kobe, he's just too serious. I remembered Phil Jackson being interviewed by Jay Leno, and asked who he liked better between the two, Phil did'nt give a direct answer but he did say that both were polar opposites because Shaq had a great sense of humor while Kobe took things seriously. Basically, he may not have said it but Shaq was the obvious choice for him. Hope this would not be taken the wrong way but Shaq seems more lovable. hehe. But in a teddy bear way :) Aside from this, I remembered one of the commentators saying during a Lakers game before that upon hearing that Mark Madsen had almost nothing since he was new in L.A, guess what Shaq did? He gave him a new car as a welcome gift :)

I must admit that it was really a heartbreaking loss when the Lakers did'nt win the finals but what was even more sad was that they will not be the same anymore. Never did I imagined that Shaq would transfer to another team. Eventhough I knew that Shaq and Kobe did'nt see eye to eye, I loved their tandem. :D One great pass from Kobe to Shaq for a Dunk! Wow! :D Haaaay :(

I know I'll always be a Lakers fan, ever since the Magic days, but now that my fave player has transferred.. Let's just say that I can't wait for a Miami Heat vs. L.A Lakers game..

bic walked away at 10:02 PM

11.07.2004

Just got home and can I just say that last night proved yet again that Life can sometimes play with you by making you remember what you wanted to forget..

bic walked away at 2:33 AM

11.05.2004

my fave boys..

Was able to catch an episode of Slam Dunk yesterday, and O-MI-GOSH!! hahah!! :D I still can't help but laugh even if I knew I have watched that episode over and over again before :D I'm not really fond of it being dubbed in Tagalog because I only watched it in AXN but seing Hanamichi and the rest just makes me smile each time :) I don't really like animes but this is one show that I religously watched everyday, esp. during my first year in College. Not only because it was about my fave sport Basketball, but Slam Dunk just really Funny. Period. This show NEVER fails to brighten up my day :D and I did'nt care if it made me look like "parang bata" :P

I was such a fan of that show, that my friends and most especially, my family could attest to it. Just yesterday, while watching it in my parents' room, my dad came and I asked him if he remembered this show, and his response made me laugh :D Not because he still remembered it considering that AXN does'nt show it anymore, which by the way is totally unfair, but it was because he said in an exasperated tone, " HAAAAY!! Gusto ko na patayin ang TV." Its because during those times that I was SOOOO into it, my dad was a witness to the many things I did just to be able to watch it. Things like, when I would just text Kar for her to open the gate ahead of time, so that when I get home from school, I would not have to wait for the gates to be opened, and I could just literally run and not wait for our car to be parked. hehe. Or the times that my dad would really scold at me because I wanted to finish watching an episode even if I knew they were all waiting for me for dinner, or even just telling me not to laugh too loud "dahil kahiya sa neighbors". But more than that, since AXN replays an episode twice or thrice a day, my dad would catch me watching the same episode in one day AND still laughing hard both times:D Hehehe. I was such a fanatic back then that my sisters and I would fight over the remote control and whenever I won, of course, I would watch Slam Dunk, and they would both call me childish. But I did'nt care, cause soon, I found Kar laughing with me as well over the show. hehe. :D

I super loved that show that it was something that I loved talking about, and my friends knew about this. Joms gave me a sticker of Hanamichi, Rap copied the OVA's for me, while the others visited and even signed the guestbook for the website I created for it. haha! Yup! That was how I adored that show that I painstakingly created a website for it even if it meant having to learn HTML. haha!! :D While it might seem childish considering that I all did those during college, I don't think of myself that way, but I'm more childlike. hehe. There's a difference! Maybe that's also the reason why I look younger than my age because, I find happiness even in the simplest things that I exude this happy, worry-free vibe. hahaha!! :D Kapal!! Anyway, I know it may seem funny, but while watching the show, it kind of made me feel sad. Its because in a way, I just forgot about some of the aspects of the show, when before, I would know even the least bit known fact. huhuhu! :( But the good thing is, it made me rediscover again why I loved the show. :D My faves are still Sendoh and Miyagi!! :D

I guess, its really true. I am really a fan of the show, because I'm thinking of watching my Slam Dunk videos again that I have although its not complete. hhuhu! :C But more than that, I can't believe I dedicated an entire post talking about Slam Dunk!Hahaha! :D

bic walked away at 11:51 PM

11.03.2004

Have you ever had those times when you can't help but ask yourself the question, What might have been?


I don't know why but for some reasons, I could'nt sleep. You see, I'm the type of person who has a recorder in my head. It keeps replaying all those memorable moments, most especially the embarrassing ones. grr! and because of this, I could'nt help but remember the events that happened in my life the past couple of years. And sometimes I wonder, what If I've said this or what if I've done that during those pivotal moments. Would I be any different now? Would I get what I have wanted? I know it would be such a waste of time comteplating over some things that just can't be undone, and more importantly, one you can't go back to. But you just can't help it. You ask yourself all these questions, even the stupid ones, just to defend that what you've done before was the right one. We might have lost the things or even people along the way because of our decisions, but life is all about choices wether it be about studies, family, love, even to the simplest things like the color of your shirt. But still, there's the nagging feeling that if you've only chosen or done the other way, then you would have been in a better place.

But the thing is asking these questions won't change the fact. It did happen. Wether it was for the better or for the worse outcome. Its about learning. And sometimes, going through these questions would make us realize our mistakes so that if ever, the chance comes up again, we'd know what we should do. And this time, hopefully, it would be the right way :D But for now, its about accepting that maybe, wether it be about someone or something, it was just never meant to be. Definitely, no regrets. :D

bic walked away at 5:26 PM