11.03.2004

Have you ever had those times when you can't help but ask yourself the question, What might have been?


I don't know why but for some reasons, I could'nt sleep. You see, I'm the type of person who has a recorder in my head. It keeps replaying all those memorable moments, most especially the embarrassing ones. grr! and because of this, I could'nt help but remember the events that happened in my life the past couple of years. And sometimes I wonder, what If I've said this or what if I've done that during those pivotal moments. Would I be any different now? Would I get what I have wanted? I know it would be such a waste of time comteplating over some things that just can't be undone, and more importantly, one you can't go back to. But you just can't help it. You ask yourself all these questions, even the stupid ones, just to defend that what you've done before was the right one. We might have lost the things or even people along the way because of our decisions, but life is all about choices wether it be about studies, family, love, even to the simplest things like the color of your shirt. But still, there's the nagging feeling that if you've only chosen or done the other way, then you would have been in a better place.

But the thing is asking these questions won't change the fact. It did happen. Wether it was for the better or for the worse outcome. Its about learning. And sometimes, going through these questions would make us realize our mistakes so that if ever, the chance comes up again, we'd know what we should do. And this time, hopefully, it would be the right way :D But for now, its about accepting that maybe, wether it be about someone or something, it was just never meant to be. Definitely, no regrets. :D

bic walked away at 5:26 PM