2.23.2005

Be leaving this afternoon, and though my clothes are already in the luggage, I feel like I'm forgetting some essential stuff :( So here I am, taking a break for a while. OMIGOSH! Alam ko na!!.... Shoes!!! Grr! hehe :) Also have to get my Ate and Kar's pasalubong lists! Mommy said Bea and John Lloyd would be in the same U.S flight as ours. Yihee! Showbiz! :D haha!

Am thinking of so many things like meeting up with Niks, Thea and having the courage to say at least something to an impt person. Anyway, can I just say how touched I am because most of my friends, even the unexpected ones, were sweet enough to text me and even called me up (ganon ba me walang load parati!?? ) to wish me well on this trip and telling me how they'll miss me, even though I'll be back by April. awww. Opo Joms, I won't forget the pasalubong para sa "core". ahha! :) Honestly, my mom wants me to stay there and try to look for a job since I could stay with my tita's family, even insisting that I bring the necessary documents, pero babalik pa ako diba?!

bic walked away at 12:17 AM

2.22.2005

First of all, Happy Birthday to my dearest mommy, or tita monedero as Joms would call her. hehe. :D Since its her 50th Birthday, though we are leaving for tomorrow, we still decided to throw a party for her. At first my mom did'nt want to but when my dad insisted, Aba! nag-hire pa ng DI so she could present a Tanggo/Swing dance number. hahah! :) Though it was not as grand as compared to my dad's celebration when he turned 50, this was still special just the same :) If before, we would hire a host, video people, etc like we did during my Dad's Bday, Ate's debut, this time, it was our turn to do those tasks. hehe. :) We did'nt really mind since it was for mommy, and for me, just as long as its a Buffet dinner, ok na! :)


happy family and my mom during her 'grand' dance number ;)

Although we were the only "kids" in that party, it was still fun. My sisters and I were laughing and contented to just listening to the adults joke around, ballroom dance (cause that's my mommy's fave hobby) and even singing (my mom's friends sang for her). haha! :) Since my ate had work tommorrow and Kar still had school, I opted to leave with them eventhough it was still kind of early. Especially since whenever my parents are with their friends, they could really stay all night. It was a good thing because it was an excuse for Kar and I to escape. Its because my mom wanted for Kar to sing and I, to dance especially since we both did that during my dad's birthday. hehe. :)

I'd remember before when we would go to my Lola's house for a family get-together, my lola's friends, and my titas would say that I looked like my mommy when she was a teenager, jokingly I would react against it, but to be honest, more than the facial resemblance, I am proud to be my mommy's daughter. :) I love her not only because she cares for us more than she cares for herself, but more than that, she really loves us unconditionally. I just hope we are able to repay her and be able to show that she also means the world to us. Love you mommy! :)

bic walked away at 11:40 PM

2.21.2005

Can't believe East won over the West in the All Star conference, 125-115 . Being a Lakers fan ever since, I have always rooted for the West. haaay! At least Shaq's in the East team... my only consolation.. :(

bic walked away at 1:49 PM

2.19.2005

Missed going out Saturday night with my st.scho friends cause I have to finish packing :'( I know I should have started packing earlier but I seemed to have been going out the past couple of weeks than I have expected. Few more days before I leave, and as excited as I am to say Hola Mexico! , I feel sick just thinking of saying Goodbye to Niks :( I wish I was not leaving too soon so I could still spend time with Niks, and be one to see her off like last year when she went to Japan.. I feel the urgency to MUST go out with Niks and friends this Monday, with or without the bombing threats, knowing that when I come back, I'd have to resort to nothing but Emails and YM just to 'see' her :(

bic walked away at 11:58 AM

2.17.2005

Its funny how some people could just grow on you. :) I must admit that I have always gone by my instincts and feelings whenever I meet someone new because, usually it has always been a pretty good judge of character. Sometimes it scares me because as much as I want to give a person a chance despite my uneasy feelings, in the end, I have been right. But that does'nt mean that it has also failed me because it has. And I'm grateful for it, because I have learned to be more open-minded and accepting. Because if not, I would have deprived myself at a chance of having a new friend or getting to know how good of a person really is. They say first imperssions last, maybe it does, but that does'nt mean you should rule out everything about a person, because in the end, you might be the one missing out on something special. And I just hope I would never get into that sorry position..

bic walked away at 11:26 PM

2.15.2005

Happy Valentine's Day. Though technically it was over a few minutes ago :) I don't know why Valentine's day has evolved into a day for lovers only, when it is also supposed to be about our loved ones too, meaning friends and family as well. I'm never really the chocolate-flowers type of girl but I must admit, it always does touch my heart whenever someone gives me flowers during Valentine's. Though some women say they don't want such, that does not mean, they do not appreciate thoughtful acts :) And this time, I say thanks to Joms, Rage and Lion :) Including Ian as well, for Valentine's day was spent with 3 of my closest guy friends. To be exact, Valentine's was spent singing with them. hehe. :) Though I also miss my girl friends :(

Joms and I was suppose to meet in Makati for our charity visit, but at the last minute, it was cancelled so we just spent our time in Glorietta, until we found something to do. And I know to Joms' horror, people who were looking at us, thought we were boyfriend and girlfriend, cause he was supposedly holding flowers which was meant for me. hahaha! Plus, if you could only see Joms' get-up! :) Unfortunately, the plan for Red Box was cancelled since the place was full :( But since there was an eagerness to "sing", the only alternative was the videoke place in Providence. And though most of our friends could not make it, together with Rage, we still pursued the idea. :) Ian came along as well, which to be honest, surprised me with his choice of songs. hehe! :) First round of San Mig was on Rage, while the first Zero was on me. grr! Made me miss Ruz more cause I know she would defend me for it was really meant to be a perfect score. :D Promise! I must say panalo tlaga si Joms, when it came to choosing Tagalog songs! Ariel, Ogie, name it.. :D

Since it was already past 11, with things to do the next day, we had to leave. On our way home, Rage and I were thinking about the bomb that exploded in Makati. I mean, who would do such SHAMEFUL and HEARTLESS act on a day when we are supposed to give Love? In a way, Joms and I are also grateful because the bomb exploded maybe minutes after we left Makati. The Bomb explosion is such an irony on a day of Love. :'( Because now, Love hurts...

bic walked away at 12:30 AM

2.14.2005

When Niks left our house, I did not notice a gift and a letter that she left for me. But more than the gift, I am thankful for the letter. Sometimes, you do things for a friend because you want to show that friend how she/he mean so much to you even without expecting anything in return. But it is also heart-warming when you realize how it has touched the person :) Niks' letter was thankyou enough. Honestly, I would not go out of my way in hosting a dinner, if Niks was not a very special friend. :) Even if it included blowing all those balloons which I thought Joms would help me do. hay hay! But nevermind since it was for Niks who has become one of my closest friends. Admittedly, I have a difficult time trusting someone. But Niks has always been a friend I could trust and open up to. Even from the smallest things like getting an SM card, to Sharing my thoughts about anything, Niks has been there.

Kar asked me how I was feeling about Niks leaving, and to be honest, I am still denying that thought. As child-like that I am, it is like a wake-up call that I can't help but feel we are all growing up. It saddens me also to know that I will be leaving first before Niks leaves. :( But just like what I wrote down for Niks, taken from a quote, "True friends are never apart, maybe in distance but not in heart!" :)

bic walked away at 12:12 AM

2.13.2005

Its almost 3o'clock in the morning, and though Rage and Tuf left just a couple of minutes ago, I could not let myself sleep. While on the other side of this room, Niks is sleeping like a baby, since she's here for an overnight. haha! :) Its funny how this 'party' was for Niks, but halfway to it, I don't know if it was because Niks drank VJ's wine, but she just slept amidst all the loud laughter and singing. :) Yun pala, Niks slept really late the other night, and we all know when Niks is reeeaaally sleepy. I even had to drag her from the other room.. ;)

Although some blockmates did not come for Niks' 'farewell' party, I'm still happy because a good number of friends came :) Good thing, the tables and chairs in our house were able to fit all those who came. I must admit I was nervouse in organizing a potluck dinner, because in a way, everyone should also 'cooperate'. But everyone did. :) Even though most were from North, they still went their way to go to my house. Just goes to show how people care for Niks. :) There was abundance of food, and everyone was willing to play the game I forced them into doing. hehe! :) Although when it came to videoke sessions, all it took was a little nudge for everyone to sing. Before, I used to remember a Sharon-Richard movie whenever I hear the song "Somewhere Down the Road" , but now, it is Lion that comes into my mind. ehhe. :)

I must give credit to Mark, who dropped by the house even if it was already midnight, though it also signaled some people for some midnight snacks. And here I though I would get most of the food that was left. hehe. :) I did not even notice that it was almost 2 until my parents came home. I Just hope that this was really memorable for Niks. Happy thoughts only. :)

bic walked away at 2:47 AM

2.11.2005

Just as I was to call it a day, I found myself lost, and looking at a sign that says Bacoor Cavite!! Arggg!!

I was thinking to myself how fulfilling the day was. Joms and I went to this parish in Makati where we intended to volunteer, which turned out really okay. After that, we went to Glorietta to buy some things for my sister and for the dinner tommorrow. Who would have thought that after parting with Joms in the Edsa station, laughing, after a few hours, I would find myself almost in tears walking this dark road in Cavite.. haay buhaayy!!

I must admit that it was my fault because I was never an "experienced commuter". My dad has never allowed me to, and if he did, only if I was with someone. I guess, after I graduated, it was the only time that I have more or less explained to them, that I would be fine riding jeeps or the Lrt by myself. Anyway, so I got down at the Baclaran station, and just took a jeep, thinking that every jeep would pass by our village, because all the jeeps that I have seen always had the Sucat sign. But of all the luck, or should I say, of all the jeeps that I had to choose, this one went all the way to Cavite without my knowledge.

My mind was pre-occupied with a lot of things that by the time I came back to reality, I was way way pass Coastal Road. I wanted to go down, but surveying the place, all I could see was a dark road with no female in sight. I waited, and waited for the "light" to show, but nothing. Until I saw a sign that said Bacoor Cavite. Just great!!! Immediately, I knew I had to go down but I also knew I had to when it was safer for me. Good thing I saw a bunch of kids, which to my bad luck again, seemed to disappear one by one! I knew I was freaking inside :( Here I was walking this unfamiliar street where next to me was a vacant lot with growing weeds and right ahead, were a few men making tambay. Flashbacks of those massacre movies came into my mind, and I knew I had to call someone. First instinct was my dad, but I did not thinking if I did, lagot ako, and how I wanted to prove kaya ko. And when I saw some Jeeps with a sign that said, Zapote, South ppl came into my mind. Rage? Out of reach. Niks? Out of reach. Tufe? I have never been so relieved to hear a friend's voice! I literally cried for help but stopped myself from crying because I might attract unwanted attention. And although Tufe did not know the place either, Tufe was nice enough to pick me up if I was able to reach at least a familiar place..Thanks talaga Tuf!:)

So in my aim to just get out of that place, I rode the next jeep I saw until its very last stop, walked until I saw a lot of people, replied to my mom's worried messages and told her the plain truth that I was lost, until I heard a person say the most beautiful word that day, "Coastal!! Coastal!!"

Honestly, I'd like to say that it was a day of misfortunes but I'd rather say that it was more of a learning experience... wushoo! :P

bic walked away at 10:47 PM

2.09.2005

Start of second overtime, and I'm sitting in front of the T.V., fidgeting and anticipating what would happen next. And before I knew it, consecutive steals, a block and there it was, Ginebra winning Game 5 :) First time I've watched an entire Ginebra game in a loooong time, but the feeling is still the same...:)

Being a basketball fan ever since, when I was in Highschool, I was soooo into Ginebra. :D My Parents would bring us to Cuneta Astrodome in order for us to watch it live. I was such a fanatic that even my sister bought me this magazine dedicated to Ginebra's first championship in a long time. The team was Gordon's Gin back then to be precise. While Vince Hizon was the crush ng bayan, my admiration went for my favorite player, Bal "the Flash" David (being a frustarted basketball player, I even imagined copying his moves), and yes, I do like Jaworski (bad words and all). haha! :) Even cried when they won. haha! :) I even remembered having this hatred towards the Alaska team! ;)

But then, for some reason, I just stopped watching PBA altogether. I don't know if it was because all of a sudden, the league was plagued with all those Fil-Am players, or that I was just not used to seeing my favorite players at their best like Meneses, Aquino. But that did not stop me from getting starstrucked still. :)I remember seeing Marlou in Glorietta before, and I guess, even if he was no longer in Ginebra, I was still a fan and "kinapalan" ko na lng talaga mukha ko, and I just approached him and talked to him, even asking where Bal David was. ahhaha!!:)

I guess, even if I'm no longer a fanatic like I was before for Ginebra, and for PBA as a whole, you still can't take it out of me in cheering for them loudly everytime I'm able to catch their game:) Yup, I am a kabarangay. haha! :)And I super duper hope that Ginebra, even if they are no longer the same team I have loved before, would win the championship :)

bic walked away at 10:27 PM

2.03.2005

Out of sight, Out of mind? Does this phrase hold truth or more like we are just denying and fooling ourselves into trying to overcome THAT something, though at the back of our heads, still very well exists??

Sometimes it does help to voice out our thoughts because in a weird way, you realize a lot of things by even just hearing yourself out loud...

bic walked away at 11:02 PM

2.02.2005

Just got off the phone with Niks. :) Welcome Back!!! You know we missed you. I can't wait to see you tomorrow. Luv ya friend!!

Speaking of friends, I got to see my close friends, outside s19, again. Though grad practice was bittersweet, cause in a way, I felt alone, seeing my friends again, especially Ellie, Au and Tufe, even Gian (hehe!), made me feel happy and grateful in such a way that though we belong to different barkadas, and sometimes even interests, we managed to still be able to have a close relationship, and to still trust each other with our own kwentos and secrets.


nabuhay si Gian :P

And today, I felt like its finally sinking in. I feel like floating and thinking "this is really it". I'm also happy that I was seated next to a former Scholastican like me which meant, daldalan lng, but at the same time, on the other side, I have also managed to make a new friend who was really nice. Hindi naman me mahirap kausapin eh. ;) Sometimes I envy guys because, with just one utter of "Pare", it was as if they were buddies for a long time, but with girls, I feel like I still need to make "tansta". Fortunately, practice flew by fast since I'm not, as in super, close to them, there was so much to share and talk about.


uy sinong pa-cute?

I guess, one of the things that I regret, aside from not studying for those Anmath subjects (booo!!), is that, no matter how my girl friends insist that I'm the friendly one, I still felt too shy to really make friends with a lot of people. But I do believe that I'd rather have a few trustworthy friends that I could really count on, than a lot of faceless people surrounding me. :)

bic walked away at 10:44 PM