7.06.2005

They say time heals all wounds, but when can one say when the right time really is..

I thought if I gave him the time, he'd come to his senses and maybe see my reasons, and so I did.. but something happened that I did not expect. I guess, whatever I decide on, its me who still ends up losing :(

Maybe I'm just too naive thinking that our Friendship would outlast this. I'm just sad and hurt that whenever these things happen to me, instead of gaining, I end up losing. Lagi na lang ganito, kaya don't blame me if ayoko muna ng love love! They say friendship is the best foundation for a relationship because in that way no matter what happens, in the end, you'll still be friends. Is it not that friendship is more important than Love? I guess not. Got this from a friend, and though it teaches me to Let go, to Move on or to Accept, I'm still hopeful. I'm trying to understand.

CLOSING CYCLES
by Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to
an end. If we insist on staying longer than the
necessary time, we lose the happiness and the
meaning of the other stages we have to go
through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters
whatever name we give it, what matters is to
leave in the past the moments of life that have
finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship
come to an end? Did you leave your parents'
house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting
friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this
has happened. You can tell yourself you won't
take another step until you find out why certain
things that were so important and so solid in your
life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for
everyone involved: your parents, your husband or
wife, your friends, your children, your sister,
everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over
new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all
feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at
the same time, not even when we try to
understand the things that happen to us. What has
passed will not return: we cannot for ever be
children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or
rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and
night relive an affair with someone who has gone
away and has not the least intention of coming
back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them
really go away. That is why it is so important
(however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs,
move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell
or donate the books you have at home. Everything
in this visible world is a manifestation of the
invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts
and getting rid of certain memories also means
making some room for other memories to take their
place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from
them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so
sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not
expect anything in return, do not expect your
efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be
discovered, your love to be understood. Stop
turning on your emotional television to watch the
same program over and over again, the one that
shows how much you suffered from a certain
loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love
relationships that are broken off, work that is
promised but there is no starting date, decisions
that are always put off waiting for the ideal
moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old
one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has
passed will never come back. Remember that there
was a time when you could live without that thing
or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is
not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may
even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity
or arrogance, but simply because that no longer
fits your life. Shut the door, change the record,
clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being
who you were, and change into who you are.

Stop being who you were, and change into who
you are.

bic walked away at 9:21 AM