4.18.2009

I've always been the outspoken one, but for twice in a row, Ervin raised his voice on me. I could count the times in my hand that Ervin did that to me before, for more than 3 years of being together. If before I would reason out, or even try to turn the tables on him, this time, I think it would be better to just shut up.

Work was worse than ever. The earliest that I could leave was at 1 am. And all those times, Ervin would wait for me. And I can't blame him for being upset. During the times that I would call him cause I thought I could leave for work already, a new thing comes up, and as it turned out, I would'nt be able to leave yet. And with Ervin waiting, I know I should call but my stupid phone either has no batt or has no signal, or worse, I would just completely forget about him. I know waiting sucks but worse of all is waiting for someone and you don't know what's happening.

Last night, I made Ervin wait for more than 3 hours :( That's twice now. I know I'm a bad girlfriend. But what I appreciate about Ervin so much is that after everything, sasabihin lang nya that I should have called and maybe I should resign already (for the x times already), and afterwards, would just give me a comforting hug :( haaayy. If I was in his place, I would really make you feel how mad I am for as long as I can. Mas nakaka-guilty pa tuloy.

If before I would complain how opposites we are, maybe its also the reason why we've lasted this long. And if I before I would constantly remind him how lucky he is to have me, the truth is, I'm the lucky one.

Labels: l-o-v-e

bic walked away at 3:28 PM