11.02.2009

Memorizing and watching all Disney movies when I was young, I knew I'd grew up naive. I thought all love stories were like fairy tales. Boy meets girl, and they'll live happily ever after. But when you get to be in one of those stories, you'll realize that its not easy as how you've read those fairy tales. Prince charming just won't sweep you off your feet, and then just ride into the sunset because truth is, getting to the "End" requires so much more than that.

I've learned that Love does not only require Love alone. It requires patience, understanding, care, being selfless, and in the process, getting hurt. I guess Disney movies never made an emphasis on the problems that Belle or Ariel could have had after they went with their prince charming.

One month from now, it will be four years already with the only boyfriend that I've ever had. Of the guys I've met before, he was the only one I could ever see a future with, and when we made it official (as boyfriend and girlfriend), I though that was it. I never realized that in doing so, that I could get hurt this much, or could so much cry for another person. I never even thought that anger could consume me. But if I had the chance, would I want to erase those parts? Probably not. I don't think I could appreciate what we have right now if it weren't for those. My love story isn't finished yet, and I don't even know how it will end up or even with whom, but I am thankful and appreciative that despite all that has happened, my story is still with him.

Sharing a few stanzas from one of my favorite poems from Pablo Neruda, I do not love you except because I love you

I do not love you except because I love you
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

bic walked away at 11:16 PM