11.11.2010

Its been almost a year since I last posted. A lot has happened but I expect more to come. In less than two weeks, am about to celebrate my birthday, and few weeks after that, am going to say bye bye to my beloved family name. In retrospect, I'll actually be saying goodbye to a lot of things.

As crazy as it may sound, my feelings differ from each day. One day I can just be sad by the thought of leaving my family, but on a different day, I can be both scared and nervous on what can happen and what might not happen. Sometimes I feel a sense of happiness and excitement, and not just because I'll be seeing all my loved ones, but the thought that I'll be marrying the guy that I love (yuccckkk. hahah). But lately, I feel STREEESSSSSEEEDDD!!!! I don't know how I can emphasize it more but its true.

Sometimes I wish everything would happen perfectly but in reality, it doesnt. Along the way, there will be mistakes and plans that change. I just got to accept that I have to do the best that I can with what has happened. I have to learn to stop dwelling on what has been done and just focus on what I still can do.

Just breathe...

bic walked away at 1:02 PM