3.04.2011
If you asked me a month ago if I was pregnant or not, I would have given you a big fat NO. Even if the signs were all there: throwing up, extreme sleepiness, missed period and most of all, not quite having my flat tummy back. I mean, I do eat a lot, but I may just be bordering to being a glutton. I was in denial maybe because I just got married and really, just trying to adjust being a wife and being separated from my parents. But then I forgot what the real purpose of a honeymoon is....
Yep, I'm pregnant and its a honeymoon baby.
Wheeew!I can't believe I'm going to be a mom na. I was in shock to say the least when I f
inally confirmed it and was actually 2 months pregnant already. I had to do 2 pregnancy tests (
first one was from Generics, baka di reliable hehhe), see an OB and to really believe it, I ordered an ultrasound. I was in tears, not because I did not love my baby, I just did not expect it. But when I saw this super tiny baby in the screen with his heart beating, I don't think I can ever love someone so much instantly. In that moment, everything changed. I just wanted to make sure that i could take care of him, protect him, and make sure that in everything I do, I always think of him first. This means even forcing myself to drink milk everynight.
A first in all of my 28 years.When you see pregnant movie stars, you'd think pregnancy was easy.
But its not. I throw up all day, sometimes even without eating anything, I'd still throw up. Even if I had a full 8-9 hours of sleep, I'd still feel like a dead veggie the next morning. I cry even with just the thought of eating papaya. My head pounds but I can't take any aspirin. But thru all these, as I feel my tummy getting bigger as each week passes, I know everything is worth it. I love him, and even if it is hard, I know he'll be the best gift ever for me and Ervin. I don't even care if its a boy or a girl, just as long as he's normal, healthy and happy.
With prayers as well, I just hope I can be the best soon to be mom! <3
bic walked away at 4:44 PM